Tag Archives: anxiety

Stories are the Cure: How I’m embracing and facing my anger

Posted on March 3, 2020 by Ryn PB

There is a sticker on the lefthand corner of my laptop, below the keyboard I am typing this on, that says, “You got this.” It is slowly peeling away, curling up, to leave only the white background the words had … Continue reading →

Posted in LGBT+, mental health, new era | Tagged airplane, airport, anger, anxiety, death, depression, grief, hannah gadsby, honesty, LGBT+, loss, mental health, nanette, queer, relapse, self harm, stories, transphobia, trauma, travel, trigger warning, truth, tsa, tw, writing | Leave a comment

Solitaire and Bedtime Stories: How My Anxiety and Creativity Live in the Same Room

Posted on October 17, 2019 by Ryn PB

As I’ve been getting out of my month-and-a-half-long sickness stupor, I’ve been getting back into my creative pursuits—bullet journaling, writing, etc.—and I’ve noticed one big change since I have been accessing this part of my brain again: I can’t fall … Continue reading →

Posted in mental health, new era | Tagged anxiety, bedtime stories, creativity, depression, hydra monster, mental health, sleeping, solitaire, writing | Leave a comment

Magic and Endurance: How David Blaine’s Crazy Stunts Help Banish My Fear of Messing Up

Posted on July 15, 2019 by Ryn PB

Disclaimer: I am aware that David Blaine has faced and is currently facing sexual assault allegations. I do not support people who do this, and in light of any new evidence, I may take down this post. I understand if … Continue reading →

Posted in mental health, new era | Tagged anxiety, card tricks, davidblaine, endurance, fasting, humanity, hydra monster, love, magic, magician, mary poppins, passion, stunts | Leave a comment

Mom Hugs and Puppy Snuggles: How I Let Depression Get the Best of Me Before I Explored Why Life is Worth Living

Posted on June 19, 2019 by Ryn PB

As you already know, this summer has been rough for me. I have been lonely, dealing with an emotional new roommate, and starting a job at Walmart that was slowly sucking my soul out like a Dementor. I won’t go … Continue reading →

Posted in LGBT+, mental health, new era, stories | Tagged anxiety, bohemian rhapsody, books, bookstore, boston terrier, bullet journal, colorado, denver, depression, dogs, goldendoodle, pride, roadtrip | Leave a comment

Mixed Media and Turning the Page: How I’m Learning to Deal with (and Embrace) Uncomfortable Situations

Posted on May 15, 2019 by Ryn PB

The spring semester has been over for what feels like ages, but I can’t stop thinking about my photography class. I spent the entire semester complaining about how I wasn’t good at photography, how I had to try really hard, … Continue reading →

Posted in mental health, new era | Tagged anxiety, books, college, creativity, hydra monster, mental health, mixed media, photography, school, uncertainty, uncomfortable, writing | Leave a comment

Cookies and Jams: How Jamming to Music and Feeding Squirrels Makes Me More Resilient

Posted on April 15, 2019 by Ryn PB

A few days ago, I woke up, went for a 4-mile run outside, then jammed out to Walk the Moon and Panic! at the Disco while getting ready for the rest of the day. And honestly, it was one of … Continue reading →

Posted in mental health, new era | Tagged anxiety, exercise, hydra monster, life lessons, music, panic at the disco, positivity, running, sadness, walk the moon | Leave a comment

Skeleton Faces and Coming Out: How I’m Learning that Confidence and Insecurities Can Live Side by Side

Posted on March 18, 2019 by Ryn PB

This past month has been weird, to say the least. My face got turned into half of a skull, I visited my friend Tricia in the hospital three hours away, I’ve been sick with a flu-sinus-infection hybrid, AND I came … Continue reading →

Posted in LGBT+, mental health, new era | Tagged anxiety, books, confidence, friendship, hospital, illness, insecurity, life lessons, mental health, nonbinary, sadness | Leave a comment

Demetri Martin and Paw-Shaped Cake: How I’m Learning to Ask for What I Want and Need

Posted on February 11, 2019 by Ryn PB

I have this horrible habit of bottling up anything that’s bothering me because I don’t want to rock the boat of any of my relationships. This inevitably leads to an explosion, usually in the form of a panic attack or … Continue reading →

Posted in mental health, new era | Tagged anxiety, cake, comedy, demetri martin, friendship, guilt, ocd | Leave a comment

A Hospital, Twenty One Pilots, and a Fish’s Death: How Sadness Has Become Less Negative for Me

Posted on December 17, 2018 by Ryn PB

About halfway through November, I finally visited a friend who had been in the hospital for months. My excuse for not going was that no one invited me and I would figure out my friends had visited her after the … Continue reading →

Posted in mental health, new era | Tagged anxiety, boredom, concert, death, life lessons, live music, mito, music, pet, sadness, sickness, trench, twenty one pilots | Leave a comment

The Hydra Monster Woke Up Again: How I’m Trying to Look for Happiness in Spite of Anxiety Troubles

Posted on November 15, 2018 by Ryn PB

I haven’t been doing well lately. This is hard for me to admit, because I never want to add to the worries of anyone I love. And they worry. A lot. I have this outwardly calm exterior—some of my friends … Continue reading →

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