Tag Archives: anxiety

26 Things I’ve Learned Over 26 Years

Posted on February 21, 2024 by Ryn PB

I was going to post this on my actual birthday, but as I said in my last post, my computer broke and I was not in possession of my laptop in the days around my birthday. I won’t let technological … Continue reading →

Posted in Another New Era | Tagged adult, age, animals, anxiety, anxious, art, asexual, asexuality, bad art, best, birthday, carrots, cats, date, delicious, dogs, energy, food, forgiveness, gross, health, hobbies, hobby, integrity, labels, life, life lessons, mental health, money, nose, pace, questions, relationships, sexuality, sibling, sister, sniffle, snot, trust, wine, writing | 1 Comment

The Clairvoyant Cashier

Posted on February 15, 2024 by Ryn PB

Ernest Kowalski just wanted to pick up some potatoes for his pierogis, but Ziggy’s market was closed on Sundays. Two of his daughters and their kids were coming for dinner that night, so after Mass he’d ventured out to the … Continue reading →

Posted in Another New Era, Fiction Short Stories | Tagged aging, anxiety, brain, cashier, clairvoyance, class, community, death, elderly, esp, family, family stories, fiancee, grief, groceries, grocery, LGBT, LGBT+, life lessons, marriage, mind, neighborhood, old man, polish, psychic, queer lit, shopping, store, sunday, voodoo, wife, writing | Leave a comment

Boy Band Music Critic 7: ZAYN

Posted on January 21, 2024 by Ryn PB

Intro Ahem. Testing… 1, 2, 3. *Feedback.* Okay, please excuse me while I don my Boy Band Music Critic hat… Ready! Let’s go! In July 2023, Zayn Malik (or ZAYN), previously of the boy band One Direction (1D) and now … Continue reading →

Posted in Another New Era, Boy Band Music Critic | Tagged 1d, anxiety, asian, asian artists, asian music, boy band, boy band music, boyband, collab, collaboration, critic, critique, love, love song, mental health, music, music critic, one direction, pakistan, pakistani, pop, pop music, pop star, r&b, rhythm and blues, zayn, zayn malik | Leave a comment

JJS: An Interactive Story

Posted on January 15, 2024 by Ryn PB

Content Warning: transphobia, misgendering, queerphobic slurs, doxing, bullying *How to read, interactive version: The first article has links to the other “sites.” These are also color-coded. *How to read, static version: Everything is presented in chronological order except for the … Continue reading →

Posted in Another New Era, Fiction Short Stories, LGBT+, original writing | Tagged anxiety, breaking news, bts, color, company, creative writing, death, doxing, fandom, friendship, global, hallyu, hypertext, idol, idols, instagram, interactive, k-pop, korea, korean, kpop, lgbt lit, LGBT+, lyrics, magazine, mental health, mixed media, multimedia, music, music industry, music news, news, online, online bullying, queer lit, red ink, short story, social media, songs, trans, trans experience, trans lit, trans stories, transgender, transmasculine, transphobia, united states, website, worldwide, writing | Leave a comment

Boy Band Music Critic 6: Agust D & Louis Tomlinson

Posted on December 31, 2023 by Ryn PB

Introduction In early 2021, when half the world was still taking COVID-19 seriously and the other half were pretending it never happened and wasn’t happening, I started listening to One Direction. And 5 Seconds of Summer. And eventually BTS. My … Continue reading →

Posted in Another New Era, Boy Band Music Critic | Tagged 1d, agust d, album, anxiety, bigger than me, boy band, boyband, bts, corona, covid, covid 19, critique, depression, faith in the future, forever rain, hip hop, kpop, louis tomlinson, mental health, mental illness, mixtape, music, music critic, music critix, one direction, pop, pop music, rap, rapper, rm, rock, rock music, social media, suga, twitter | 1 Comment

Boy Band Music Critic 5: ZAYN, Ashton Irwin, & Harry Styles

Posted on December 26, 2023 by Ryn PB

Posted in Another New Era, Boy Band Music Critic | Tagged 1d, 5 seconds of summer, 5sos, albums, anxiety, ashton irwin, boy band, cd, celebrities, coachella, comedy, corona, covid, covid-19, critic, critique, fame, harry styles, harrys house, humor, kpop, live, live music, mental health, music, music cover, music critic, nirvana, nobody is listening, one direction, pop, pop music, skit, snl, social media, superbloom, twitter, zayn, zayn malik | Leave a comment

The Bin-son Boy, Part 3 (of 4)*

Posted on October 15, 2023 by Ryn PB

Part 1 Part 2 I thought I’d read Noriyuki’s calligraphy instructions wrong. There were no transports to anywhere near the destination, but the directions stayed the same no matter how many times I read them. There was only one way … Continue reading →

Posted in Another New Era, Fiction Short Stories, stories | Tagged anxiety, fighting, karate, karate kid, martial arts, queerlit, retelling, sci fi, science, science fiction, space, story, teens, writing | 1 Comment

“Doubt Comes In”: On Hadestown, Turning Around, and Living with Doubt*

Posted on September 15, 2023 by Ryn PB

The dog you really got to dread Is the one that howls inside your head It’s him whose howling drives men mad And a mind to its undoing… I’ll tell you where the real road lies Between your ears, behind … Continue reading →

Posted in Another New Era, mental health, polysyllabic spree | Tagged anais mitchell, anxiety, broadway, change, city, crisis, doubt, emotion, eurydice, family, friendship, greek myth, greek mythology, hades, hadestown, hermes, hope, life changes, life lessons, lillias white, love, love story, mental health, moving, music, musical, mythology, new york, npr, nyc, orpheus, orpheus and eurydice, persephone, quarter life crisis, reeve carney, romance, stories, story, storytelling, tennis, tiny desk, tiny desk concert, trust, us open | 1 Comment

Pierre-Auguste Salvatici

Posted on July 16, 2023 by Ryn PB

His parents set him up for failure when they named him Pierre-Auguste Salvatici. Even if he hadn’t grown up with a persistent speech impediment and severe respiratory problems, Pierre-Auguste Salvatici could never live up to the grandiosity of the name. … Continue reading →

Posted in Another New Era, Fiction Short Stories | Tagged adopted, adoption, anxiety, asthma, club, copd, death, driving, drowning, friends, great lakes, high school, lake, lakes, languages, life lessons, lung disease, lungs, names, neglect, neighbors, orphan, parental death, reading, ship, shipwreck, talent, talent show, tea, water, writing | 1 Comment

I’m Thinking About Moths

Posted on May 31, 2023 by Ryn PB

I accidentally killed a moth. I was sitting outside, crisscross applesauce, back against a brick wall, sweating under the late May sun; the moth saw the shadowy space underneath my legs and beelined for the shelter with inevitably misplaced trust. … Continue reading →

Posted in Another New Era, mental health | Tagged anxiety, bookseller, change, friends, friendship, half price books, hpb, job, knives, life changes, life lessons, may, mental health, moths, nature, nebraska, outside, reading, summer, the mountain goats, work | 1 Comment